To be or not to be

I have been devastated during this one and half year being back at home! no plan got managed to be done except one little one for god sake!+one month staying in St Catharines for end of summer. That was fresh air atleast. Bureaucracy is BS and things getting so slowly and disappinting. I am switched off!

I was suggested today to
1. be patient, someday this game will be over
1.a)don't miss this opportunity, here is a best place to be!
2. follow some hidden rules(hidden symmetries!).

Let see where this BS procedure will take me.

Storm , cloudy, hopefully sunny

These few days was sort of storm in my life, Thanks god, now it is cloudy, i hope monday afternoon will be sunny!

spark of life, sprout of passion and moving towards them

One i was reading a post from : The Enchanted Soul . I used it in the preface of my dissetation:

We could say that everyone's life has several layers. The surface layer is constantly changing and sometimes it transmutes into a storm.
This layer, usually deals with daily life happenings, tasks, and responsibilities. The exterior layer, tends to draw great deal of attention
towards itself: the semester is starting, deadlines are pushing, tasks are lining up, moving to a new apartment is on the way, and many more.
However, I have learned to focus, and see beyond the surface layer, deeper into my inner life and what I consider to be of more importance to me.
For the last four years, I have been able to track the inner progress of my personality and the changes that happen in the state of my mind. Every now
and then, while sitting behind my desk and sipping coffee, I look into the progress and the new challenges on my way, which provide me with
fresh perspective. The droplets of formulas and equations open their way through this arid soil of technical jargon.
I wait for a spark of life, for a sprout of passion to appear, but i kept in mind that I should move to see them as Albert Einstein says :``Life is like riding a bicycle.
To keep your balance you must keep moving.''.

Defence, Odyssey and ...

Next week will be my Ph.d defence. Alhamdolellah i get to this point after passing all those difficult times, anxieties. But i still need the reader's pray.
It was kind of Odyssey. I had a file i named it Odyssey.tex. I wrote all progress and challenges with. I wish i could continue it. Anyway, I love to read the real Odyssey of Homer, maybe i should find english version and read it, that would be much enjoyable.

The Hen or the Egg?

During last 6 months, i have encountered many times to the following problem:
The egg is created first or the hen or which Came First: The Hen or the Egg?
Dont think about Christianity, Islam, Darwin's theory or even Mr rooster.
Here is my intention of asking this question:
How many times I gave the wrong answer which resulted in waste of my time and energy. God bless me!